My 15 minute brain dumps daily- a process I’m adopting after talking to Patricia of Lawless Coach. 15 minutes of focus daily can do wonders. Enjoy mine. 
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Still doing these 15 minute brain dumps. Because I want to, not because I have to (although that statement is to remind myself to have a positive attitude and change my “I have to do this blog post right now” moment).
Have to vs. want to.
Ignoring the Demons
I used to work with this girl who had a sarcastic attitude. She was just one of those, “I’m negative, but I’m joking and it’s cute” people. You pretend like you’re negative, and you become negative. And then it’s not cute. It’s cute for awhile, but ugh when it rubs off.
I didn’t become negative, but since I enjoy what I do for work and it seemed she did not, I felt this need to automatically say, “I have to go do this”. Even though when I had to do something, I really wanted to. I did this so she wouldn’t feel so bad about her have to tasks. I wanted to help share in her pain. Fail man, fail.
The reason I illustrate this is because these small comments I made daily about having to do something (vs jumping for joy because I wanted to) actually changed my attitude on things. I felt heavier, like I had to do the things I loved. And then since I had to do it, I enjoyed it less. I enjoyed life less. And that is the suck.
Introspection is the Win
You gotta stop yourself before you become a lousy bum with a bad attitude. And you better catch it fast. It’s about being habitually awesome.
I did. And I’ve gotten back to wanting do do things (not that that actually changed until I began faking that I didn’t enjoy what I did.)
Even words, the words we’re surrounded by, the words we put out into this world are so key in framing our actual lives.
Don’t get stuck in, I have to. Get back to I want to.
Your choice. No one elses.
This is our life. We make the choices we want. We determine our success and failures. We are the only people that we can hold accountable for our happiness, determination, passion, and drive.
It even goes back to this simple blog post, right? I don’t necessarily want to write this blog post right now, but I have made it a have to. Because I want to. Not because I want a 15 minute brain dump, but because I know this contributes to a greater goal of balance, focus, and I know writing grounds me daily. Which again makes it a want to.
Attitude folks. Thanks Patricia for amplifying this desire of want in my life.
PS if you haven’t signed up for a coaching session with Patricia yet, you’re only hurting yourself. And that’s no fun.
xxoo,
Tracy @ladyleet